My life is not getting better.

Recently, things are not going fine i guess. I thought that things are getting better but after talking to you i realized that things didn't, it went the other way. You don't want to get yourself tied up to any relationship because you don't know if I am the right person for you. I understand. You said you didn't want to give me any more false hope. So now, I am not very sure my position in your heart. You said that part of you want to be with me and part of you don't. Looks like i will just continue looking at you from a distance and wait for you until you are mature enough and understand how to handle your own feelings, know what you really want and go for it. I am thinking that you are quite insensitive, knowing that I am waiting for you to come home but you still come home so late many days recently. Then i realized, I am not even in the position to say that because it is my own will to do that. Sometimes, I just hope that you can turn around and look at the person who has been around you all the while, and appreciate what he has been doing for you. All the little things that I did for you, I hope that one day you will realized them and appreciate them. I just hope some day I can really know if I am the one for you, or I am not. Maybe I think too highly of myself, thinking that by treating you well, protecting you, taking care of you and being a v caring person will make you fall for me. Now I realized that I am wrong, it doesn't get me anywhere except getting another "好人卡" like always. Maybe if I fail to be with you, I will learn how to protect myself more and think more wisely about getting into relationships. Maybe I am not mature enough too...

I am an outsider?

Sometimes, I really feel like an outsider. Every single time you are sad or emoing about something, you will never tell me. When I found out, I am always the last one to know. I dun understand why is that if I am important to you, you won't let me know when you are sad. Is not just once or twice, but almost every single time I have to find out about it by myself. If you just dun want me to worried, then let me know whenever you are sad so that I can worry about you for a moment instead of all the time, not knowing when you will need someone to talk to. Being someone so close to you, yet being the person who is the last to know that you are not okay. This feeling Suck to the max.

Love

你告诉我说 你再也不相信爱情
你告诉我说 每个男人都一样

但是 我想要一直陪着你
我想要一直爱着你
我想要给你幸福
所以我希望，有一天你可以接受我
让我一直给你快乐
让我一直照顾你
让我一直爱着你
让我一只保护你
好吗？

你出事了

我知道你现在肯定很难过
我希望我就能在你身边
我不愿让你一个人
我真的非常担心你
所以可不可以快出现在我面前
让我给你最温暖的拥抱
让我把肩膀借给你哭
让我陪你直到你没事
好不好？

你走了

你走了，我真的不知道该怎么办

一个单人房，每天都有两个人互相陪伴彼此。你走了，这张睡床，再舒服都觉得太宽。

习惯两个人睡单人床，才能沉睡到天亮。

我知道你还是爱着我 虽然分开的理由 我们都已接受

你别担心 我不怕一个人站在雨里 除了你 我找不到能快乐的意义